Rambling brain

 Hah! so much for writing more, it's been about a month.

But, this morning's walk filled with a rambling brain full of stuff,  made me want to get it out of my head and onto this page.

There are some big things going on - houses we are looking at have finally come on the market so I have to view them myself and that means trusting my own judgement and having someone else trust me too. That is scary.

Sad things are happening, slowly. Making me question so many of my beliefs, my ways of thinking that used to keep me safe and are now no longer any use. Much of this I know academically but different when in the middle of it. My footing feels very unsure right now.

Through this and more, the morning walks help. However low I'm feeling just the sight of the Goldfinches flitting from wire to wire, leading me down the road and a quick hop, skip of a lamb makes me smile inside.

Change is a forgone conclusion but that doesn't make it any easier.

I had better things to write when I was walking, of course I distracted myself as soon as I got in. Ah well.